Sabin Waking up. Making amends. awakening

Drowning at her side

it finally became real the damage I’ve done to her voice, the lack of attention I’ve paid to her for real, and the...

By Sabin March 2, 2023awakening, madness, recovery

This is the first part of a series about my lived experience of waking up after a 28-year identity break. I feel like...

I went through old journal entries for inspiration tonight. I reminded myself of who I had been, pitfalls and traps I had fallen...

By Sabin January 6, 2023awakening, looking back, process, psychedelics

I have so many letters for you I’ve never sent … thoughts I don’t know how to communicate … wasted so many moments...

By Sabin December 28, 2022apology, asha, awakening, process, soul

This is a very personal space of growth, healing, learning, sharing, and cobbling together a new path forward after spending decades as a...

By Sabin December 28, 2022awakening, thoughts, writing

Dearest Asha, You know I love you. I tell you all the time. Too much, probably. You’re so easy to love. Charming and...

By Sabin December 13, 2022apology, awakening, process, song

I’m living entangled between two dreams. One is the life I have been living for 26 years. The other is the life I...

By Sabin November 30, 2022awakening, soul, thoughts

these are a handful of excerpts and copy/pastes from digital and hand-written journal entries related to my personal experience in trying to live...