Three weeks ago at winter solstice, something cracked open in me that hasn’t closed back up. At the time, I recorded/performed eight tracks in four days — minimal techno, ambient downtempo, arpeggiated grooves that just wanted to run. All of it performed live in Logic Pro, no backing out of...

After a year of creative silence following the release of "Where've You Been?", something shifted during winter solstice 2025 and the gates opened up. Over four days this past week, eight tracks emerged—minimal techno, ambient downtempo, driving arpeggiated grooves. All created and performed live in Logic Pro, no edits after...

A short reflection on the dissertation I couldn’t finish. Before I went a little mad and had to leave my PhD program, the dissertation I was writing was called “The Inheritance of Gilgamesh.” It was about the patriarchal systems of thought, perception, and control that originated in ancient Mesopotamia around...

When I was sixteen, I sat cross-legged on my bedroom floor, meditating on the rune PERTHRO—the rune of mystery, the "dice cup" that holds fate. I was working through the concepts of Orlog and Hamingja, those Old Norse concepts of destiny and personal power, trying to understand what it meant...

The structures I'd built my life around—the roles I performed, the identity I'd constructed, the ways I showed up in relationship—all of those were designed by and for someone I no longer was. Trying to keep them intact while also honoring what I'd learned created an impossible tension. Something had...

Peak experiences—whether from plant medicine, meditation retreat, spiritual emergency, or spontaneous awakening—have a way of feeling conclusive. Like you’ve finally broken through, seen the truth, become the person you were always meant to be. The clarity is so profound, the shift so undeniable, that it’s easy to believe the transformation...

I’ve decided to more fully open up to offering spiritual and integration guidance, so I want to share reflections on the praxis of personal healing and spiritual integration alongside my other writing. These pieces draw from my own journey through dissociation, awakening, and the slow work of becoming whole. If...

The last time I tried to post here, I pulled it after a day or so. I was trying something new, and it wasn’t my style. First of all, it was a traveling post, which I should’ve avoided. Traveling isn’t as easy for me as it used to be, and...

A story about rusted brakes, midnight Denny’s runs, and the poetry of old cars and the life we live with them. I wasn’t sure whether to share this, but I’m fond of the roads we’ve traveled. From Earl to Shazam… and beyond.

Hundreds of thousands of people showed up this past weekend to resist the machinations of a fascist regime-making autocrat, and it was profound on multiple levels, and an awe to bear witness to, even remotely. I can envision a truly horizontally arranged, care-based society that understands what it means to...