It was just about a year ago when I wrote a reflection on 2023, so I figured I’d do it again this year. It’s hard to put into words how it feels to look back on this past year. At this time last year, I was sitting in my living...

For most of my life, I stressed about proving myself and achieving perfection, but everything changed four years ago when I discovered the beauty of dilettantism—engaging in things out of love and curiosity rather than obligation. Experiences like Ayahuasca and mindfulness taught me to embrace imperfection and just be present....

Releasing Where’ve You Been? feels like setting loose a collection of bottled messages into the ocean—each one containing fragments of my life, some drifting to distant shores, others caught in unexpected currents. The messages are written, and now I’m watching the tides carry them away to unknown destinations, hoping that...

I felt transparent and ethereal, and so I reached out to the floor for the soft carpet and left my hand print in it. The carpet reminded me I was real and the hand print proved I was solid. I've done a ritual of this kind of thing for most...

Later that year -- the same year I had a spiritual awakening and fell profoundly in love -- it came up that my mother hypnotized me nightly from about 2 years old to the age of 9 or 10 or so.

One of the defining characteristics of my personality for the past 30 years has been a decided lack of integrity. Deadlines, promises, schedules, appointments: these were all fluid in my mind, and I frequently ignored them. I was good at justifying why I couldn’t make a doctor’s appointment, or why...

Thanks for stopping by my journal. This space is important to me because I’m having a difficult time finding a place for myself in this world. It was like that when I was young, and also as I pulled Danielle and I into our abyss, and it’s moreso now that...

We’re doing the mastering for “Simultaneously Alive” now, which means Danielle is taking over a lot of the specific finalities as producer — as well as recording some vocals –, which also means I have a lot of time on my hands being just the songwriter and being all jobless...

I’m working in the corner of the kitchen tonight as Danielle finishes the master for the first single from “Simultaneously Alive”. We’ve done a lot of work to ensure that certain corners of the house are no longer recognizable as what they were when I was growing up here. This...

I got turned down for another job the other day. A local one I really wanted this time, so it hurts a bit more than the others. I can’t keep track of the number of resumes I’ve sent out to either rejections or radio silence — or a combination of...