Thanks for stopping by my journal. This space is important to me because I’m having a difficult time finding a place for myself in this world. It was like that when I was young, and also as I pulled Danielle and I into our abyss, and it’s moreso now that...

We’re doing the mastering for “Simultaneously Alive” now, which means Danielle is taking over a lot of the specific finalities as producer — as well as recording some vocals –, which also means I have a lot of time on my hands being just the songwriter and being all jobless...

I’m working in the corner of the kitchen tonight as Danielle finishes the master for the first single from “Simultaneously Alive”. We’ve done a lot of work to ensure that certain corners of the house are no longer recognizable as what they were when I was growing up here. This...

We become as surfers on a cosmic wave of potentiality, and all we can do is ride it out The path of recovery is paved with relapses and peppered with pitfalls, I’m finding. The tiger traps of my mind. I encounter them after certain triggers or epiphanies and it takes...

it finally became real the damage I’ve done to her voice, the lack of attention I’ve paid to her for real, and the responsibilities I’ve shirked, not just “in my madness” but during this process as I’ve been coming along, or she’s been dragging me along. I don’t know anymore....

This is the first part of a series about my lived experience of waking up after a 28-year identity break. I feel like I am finally home, and I am grateful for my experience, even if it seems like a hell. my life has been irrevocably changed for the better....

I have so many letters for you I’ve never sent … thoughts I don’t know how to communicate … wasted so many moments between us until there’s more distance than not … and now that I’m awakening I can see so clearly what I’ve done and how I squandered your...

This is a very personal space of growth, healing, learning, sharing, and cobbling together a new path forward after spending decades as a Pettigrew-like sychophant. Mentally and emotionally abusive to those I love the most — including my partner, with whom I am deeply in love. In order for me...

Dearest Asha, You know I love you. I tell you all the time. Too much, probably. You’re so easy to love. Charming and kind. Courageous. Brilliant wit and soulful heart. A beautiful voice. Dazzling smile with galaxy eyes. For all the reasons that anyone else who meets you will love...

I’m living entangled between two dreams. One is the life I have been living for 26 years. The other is the life I want to be living from now on. I feel squeezed and stretched by the separation of these two very different ways of living. The emotional pain of...