Tag: psychedelics

The Two Maps

When I was sixteen, I sat cross-legged on my bedroom floor, meditating on the rune PERTHRO—the rune of mystery, the “dice cup” that holds fate. I was working through the concepts of Orlog and Hamingja, those Old Norse concepts of destiny and personal power, trying to understand what it meant that life sometimes feels fated and other times feels entirely within our control. I was asking a brazen question for a teenager, and I was given a simple answer: Life is a lot like orienteering.

My vision that evening showed me something that helped me navigate those early awakening years: we carry (at least) two maps that mark the terrain of our life and show the pathways we are able to walk. There’s the map(s) our ego creates—built from trauma, from other people’s expectations, from survival strategies that once kept us safe. And buried underneath that overlay, there’s the true topography of our soul, the actual landscape we’re meant to walk that becomes visible through our peak experiences, patience, and love.

Faces of change: 2012 – 2022

This is the first part of a series about my lived experience of waking up after a 28-year identity break. I feel like I am finally home, and I am grateful for my experience, even if it seems like a hell. my life has been irrevocably changed for the better. Please read this with the […]

I Learned from my past to look forward from here

I went through old journal entries for inspiration tonight. I reminded myself of who I had been, pitfalls and traps I had fallen into, mirrors I wasn’t paying attention to. It’s painful to go back there, review that man’s thoughts as though they’re still mine. I think history is a useful tool in the long […]

Notes from early drafts cobbled together

these are a handful of excerpts and copy/pastes from digital and hand-written journal entries related to my personal experience in trying to live a more awakened life. As I find more, I will post in the appropriate dates. (Oct 24 2021) I accept the responsibility of being the author of my own life (Oct 4, […]