Tag: thoughts

From Earl to Shazam: A Life in Cars, and the Roads Between

A story about rusted brakes, midnight Denny’s runs, and the poetry of old cars and the life we live with them. I wasn’t sure whether to share this, but I’m fond of the roads we’ve traveled. From Earl to Shazam… and beyond.

First of April end of day check in. How are you all?

I’ve been ruminating all day, and I think I’m just going to relegate today to a general checking in. How are all of you? It’s Tuesday, April 1st at about 7 p.m. It’s been over two years since I could handle even a small set of responsibilities. It feels good to be able to stand — albeit a little wobbily — after the stumbling.

Waking up as it were

Thanks for stopping by my journal. This space is important to me because I’m having a difficult time finding a place for myself in this world. It was like that when I was young, and also as I pulled Danielle and I into our abyss, and it’s moreso now that we’re emerging into our actual […]

Caveat

Rodent attached to pyramid with four eyes.

This is a very personal space of growth, healing, learning, sharing, and cobbling together a new path forward after spending decades as a Pettigrew-like sychophant. Mentally and emotionally abusive to those I love the most — including my partner, with whom I am deeply in love. In order for me to come to terms, to […]

Entanglement of Living

I’m living entangled between two dreams. One is the life I have been living for 26 years. The other is the life I want to be living from now on. I feel squeezed and stretched by the separation of these two very different ways of living. The emotional pain of the passage from one into […]

Too many books?

I might buy too many books. I mean, clearly. Look at the pristine spines on those books on my desk. Nary one of them has been cracked beyond a brief thumb-through. That said, though, I love my books. One of the reasons I like getting a PhD so much is all of the reading and […]