Tag: thoughts

First of April end of day check in. How are you all?

I’ve been ruminating all day, and I think I’m just going to relegate today to a general checking in. How are all of you? It’s Tuesday, April 1st at about 7 p.m. It’s been over two years since I could handle even a small set of responsibilities. It feels good to be able to stand — albeit a little wobbily — after the stumbling.

Waking up as it were

Thanks for stopping by my journal. This space is important to me because I’m having a difficult time finding a place for myself in this world. It was like that when I was young, and also as I pulled Danielle and I into our abyss, and it’s moreso now that we’re emerging into our actual […]

Caveat

Rodent attached to pyramid with four eyes.

This is a very personal space of growth, healing, learning, sharing, and cobbling together a new path forward after spending decades as a Pettigrew-like sychophant. Mentally and emotionally abusive to those I love the most — including my partner, with whom I am deeply in love. In order for me to come to terms, to […]

Entanglement of Living

I’m living entangled between two dreams. One is the life I have been living for 26 years. The other is the life I want to be living from now on. I feel squeezed and stretched by the separation of these two very different ways of living. The emotional pain of the passage from one into […]

Too many books?

I might buy too many books. I mean, clearly. Look at the pristine spines on those books on my desk. Nary one of them has been cracked beyond a brief thumb-through. That said, though, I love my books. One of the reasons I like getting a PhD so much is all of the reading and […]