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Just short of getting it tattooed on me …
🌱 This Week I…

Thoughts on change
Reclaiming space so that we can live more in the present — to grow from the transformation of space — has been part of the process of reclaiming our souls and finding our way back towards creating music. This album wouldn’t be possible without the effort we’ve put into the healing journey for our spaces as well as ourselves.

I Learned from my past to look forward from here
And even with the help of the psychedelics, it has taken me almost three years to come to terms with the new landscape of my existence, to find a way to find myself, and begin re-engaging with the world. That all starts today, it seems.

Catching up
Let me quickly summarize:

Recording as “Sabin” as of today
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Checking in From the Cold
New pedal setup for getting at the album’s sounds: Behringer pedals are great for experimenting. And speaking of which, my album is doing reasonably well considering the scant work I’ve been able to put into promotion. Word-of-mouth is working for me. Because of my connections on Instagram, I was contacted by and interviewed for the Jaden Cornelious show on YouTube this past Friday, which was a great experience. He was super easy to talk with, is a fantastic interviewer, and I had a lot of fun. We chatted for close to an hour I think about music, spirituality, shared experiences, my album, and some other cool things. The video will be posted to his channel in March, and I highly recommend checking him out. Alsø wik, I’m happy to say that there have been just over 4,200 total streams and over 200 listeners from dozens of countries with the songs If You Don’t Mind and Who Are You? leading the way with 758 and 444 plays respectively across SoundCloud and Spotify. That’s non-bot, non-AI, non-playlist, non-purchased real people finding my music and listening. Which is awesome for me. Also, there seem to be repeat listeners on both platforms, and songs have been added to a few playlists. Atthe same time, that’s from fewer listeners than who follow me on social media, so …. what are you waiting for? Give me a chance!

Embarking on a Renewed Journey: Reintegration and Human-Centric Design
While my professional achievements tell one part of my story, there’s another dimension that’s equally defining. Beyond professional settings, I am a musician, an intuitive composer, and a seeker of spiritual depth. These facets of my life are not separate from my professional endeavors; rather, they enrich and inform them. My engagement with music and spirituality offers a unique perspective, influencing my approach to design, leadership, and collaboration. It’s a reminder that at the core of all our pursuits lies a yearning for connection, expression, and deeper understanding.

Fate of an alma mater
Please take more time. Postpone this decision. Allow us — the alumni, faculty, students, communities, and legislators — to ruminate and come up with working proposals that solve your concerns while not acquiescing to a panicked world. Our financial issues at NVU and in VSCS are symptoms of a larger problem that we must have time to understand and solve. 

Waking up as it were
I’m being awuflly honest here. I hope it’s okay. But it’s taking me an awful lot of words to communicate something very simple: I feel awake in a sleeping world and it’s confusing at best, lonely all the time, and sometimes quite hellish. The reason we founded it and the concept behind Midheaven is an attempt to do what we can with what we have to transform that dillemma into the foundation for others who may be going through something similar, to give out to others what we needed at our darkest points in our journey, what we need some days still. It’s slow going, but we’re dedicated to it. We’ve made a lot of progress on our first public area: the front sun room.

One Month In and One Year Later: A Journey Worth Celebrating
So I’m feeling pretty chuffed—not in a loud or boastful way, but in a quiet, deeply personal way. Proud of the work I’ve done, proud to have shared it, and proud to see it finding its way into the world. And while I don’t measure success by streams or saves, I do hope that more people get to experience this music—not for the sake of fame or recognition, but because connection is at the heart of everything I do.

Writing

I’ve been writing for the Internet since at least 1998, probably earlier when I got my badger.jsc.vsc.edu email address. The following is the most recent collection of essays, blogs, and articles going back over a decade. Currently, I focus on the threads that connect my inner life to culture, community, healing, and the ongoing work of being in this strange place. It’s a mix of personal reflection, systems thinking, and occasional rabbit holes I just can’t resist.

From Earl to Shazam: A Life in Cars, and the Roads Between

A story about rusted brakes, midnight Denny’s runs, and the poetry of old cars and the life we live with them. I wasn’t sure whether to share this, but I’m fond of the roads we’ve traveled. From Earl to Shazam… and beyond.

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